last year.. i played my bridezilla card well.. well.. at least i thought i did ok.. *LOL*
my mom (especially) was relieved after the whole fiasco was done. she thought (or so she thought) that the whole "awak bile lagi..??" phase is over. no more answering nauseating questions of when m tying the knot.. ladadidalalala...
or so she thought..
now.. (or, 2 weeks after our wedding to precise) .. its a whole new game plan. a whole new set of questions. i get the :
"dah ada isi??"
"bile lagi ni?? " (bila lagi apekejadahnye lagi??!!) *&^&#$%&#&&!!!
"gemoknya.. ada isi ke?? (ini aku paling angin sekali a kan..as if 1 year of dieting (2008) is just merely not eating.. give me a break laa!let me have my freakin carb!)
well.. i must admit.. it's not easy for some people. and i'm one of them. few years ago i was going to many, many doctors claiming extreme cramps. well, as predicted.. all of them said it would go away once i get married. totally pissed off.. but i believed a lot of my peeps (and other girls) take these advices & walk away. you know what.. don't. we never know what's happening inside (as in the case of a dear friend of mine who had exact same symptom as i did).
i finally went to an obgyn.. whom now i visit regularly.. and finally i get my diagnose. it was endometriosis. endo what on earth? malas la gua nak explain kan.. sebab dulu pun gua ade explain but it fell on deaf ears to many *LOL* so my point is.. (and i do have one) .. endometriosis, cycts, inverted uterus.. you name it.. i've been through it. i was on the pill.. danazol (where they stop your peds for 6 months.. i was practically going through mini menopause! hee).. i no longer have the painful part (insyaAllah).. but whatever that comes with endometriosis.. i still have to bear it.
one of which.. the conceiving part. as you may wonder how people get preggers like mouses & cats.. well.. that doesn't happen to some of us *LOL* so now m on clomid.. hopefully some magic happens when caveman comes back *grin* but all this nutrition & meds to get me preggers are making me festively plump.. hehe!
until then... just shut it ok?