Post 2012

Weiiii heiii peeps.. miss me? Ive been busy la.. but i just installed this app called blogaway.. and supposedly.. sepatutnya lah kan.. i can blog.. mobile .. anytime.. anywhere.

So until i could figure out where to start.. consider this an ice breaker je la ek.. tehehehe...

Keep calm & hijab on..

tooth fairy

i've been complaining about my wisdom tooth for years now. it come and go. but this year. i insisted on having an xray done. and.. tadaaa.. much to my dislike.. there they are.. all 4 of themm.. waiting to sprung out. unfortunately, there were no space left on either side.. up or down. worst.. the bottom teeth.. has grown horizontally.. and pushing the tooth next to it. ouch. indeed.

so i went to pantai specialist..since they there were the only one with a dental surgeon.. and i was told it's a big deal. which means i have to be warded. which means i have to wait for caveman to come back in june. which also means.. i have to leave mons for at least 1 night. what??!? this is not happening!!

but maybe i'll lost all those extra weight..since i'll only be on liquid diet? hmmm....

I am NOT disabled!!

photo credit to : http://qasfirdaus.blogspot.com/

as mons and caveman snooze away.. (yea he came back for a bit hehe).. i took the chance to update my blog and read my peeps'. then came across this entry by cousin yaya.. and got me totally furious! not a way i'd like to start my day, dah la flu & batuk..maki hamun lak tu..heheh

i mean.. come on! if you have ample breast milk.. fine. if you don't have much.. fine. it is very stressful when you don't have much but.. yela, dah macam tu kan. no matter how hard i tried..i just don't have much anymore. i am an advocate of breastfeeding.. i tell everyone to just try to breastfeed. but please don't tell me dorang ibu yang cacat just because they couldn't! my first reaction when i read this was.. c***i.

you & me both are breastfeeding moms. you know how it feels. you know how sensitive we are about anything relating to boobs. you know how sad it is when there were days when we just don't have enough (or don't have at all sometimes). how insensitive could you get by calling moms with no milk as cacat???!

i read she has apologize.. but who cares.. i don't even think she means it.

susu tu kan rezeki anak2. ibu2 yang menyusukan anaknya, setiap titik menghapuskan 1 dosa. dan ibu2 yang menyusukan anaknya dikecualikan dari berpuasa. semua tu ada dalam quran. tapi takde dalam quran yang sebut ibu yang takde susu tu cacat!

bitch.

to the dearly departed?

i was preparing the labels for the yassin books for this weekend kenduri arwah..which was initially planned for arwah mak..but with the untimely passing of tok tik.. it would for her too.. and for both my arwah grandad..

i have the labels ready.. names.. but no wordings. i know.. i know.. its a kenduri arwah..what nonsense am i talking about right? but trust me.. i have this issue everytime im asked to do labels. hehehe!

so i actually googled.. to the dearly departed.. then m like.. apekejadahnye ini? then i googled..ucapan takziah. lagi teruk. focus kechik..focus! last2 i googled.. ayat quran tentang mati. press enter. presto.

Kematian

bacalah..it is a good read. i must admit..since hannah came along there were a lot of things i overlooked. well you know la a baby is always blamed for eveything.. saggy boobs la.. 20kg degil la.. hehehhe.. unlike when i was pregnant.. i tried not to miss anything..yela, orang kata akhlak anak tu start dari dalam perut ibu. so i never took shortcuts.. i never used mp3, it was purely quran recitals, daily. when i could not stand, i sit. so long as i don't have to miss my prayers.

but that was then. then she came along. and everything was about her. there goes my prayers..my recitals. sigh.

i visited arwah mak's grave when i was in kluang last week. i went there on her birthday. 21st january. and guess what..it still has that sweet smell ..it came and go during the yassin recital. made me realise, everything else don't last.. except for your goodwills.

jadik puan2.. selamat beramal.. *hee*

january..

january has been busy. super. in between my crazy work..(sampai ke bosan cameron for a meeting?? seriously?) to some sad news..

hannah for one travelled a whole lot this month.first i took her to cameron highlands.. since i cannot be away from her.. so bawakla segala buai bagai ke cameron. photos coming soon..

then found out one of my junior at school ..her 4 month old baby passed away.. tersedak susu they call it..? it happened at the baby sitter's. she choked while sleeping on her belly..or so i was told.. innalillah..

then luckily i've packed for the melaka trip.. for then i found out my other grandma passed away. i did have an entry on this.. through sms..then i just realise today it didnt got through. wat penat menaip je. so from a melaka trip (for the Bank's convention) to a trip all the way to Endau. poor hannah, it was a long (like 10 hours! inclusive of lunch break..nappy break..and berbagai2 break lagi) long drive. and instead of staying at philea melaka..she had to stay at seri malaysia endau. blergh. it tripped like, every 10mins during the day. oh well. she cant always have it good kan.. kaasik rasa dok budget hotel sikit. heheh!

so after a week of leave..m sooo not in the mood to go back to work.. sigh...

2010.. in retrospective..

in 2010.. i regretted the fact that..

1. i did not fight harder for my munchkin a.k.a keledek a.k.a mon mons. i give in to the corporate evilness.. and as a result .. my milk supply depleted. although m still breastfeeding her to this date.. i wished i had stand up for her booby rights and said "i belong at home with my baby. not here". but i didn't. and i didnt even get my annual bonus! f**k

2. i didn't get to spend enough time with my nephews. as i met them in december during their school holiday... i realised they've grown up & i missed a lot of things in their life. i mean.. azim is going to be in primary 1 & i actually thought he's turning 6. sigh.

3. i did not save enough. instead i spent too much. on... what else.. baby stuff la. hahaha!

4. i was too focus in being a mom.. i forgot a whole of other things.

in 2010.. i am proud that ..

1. did not get any panic attack, being a first time mom.. assisted by my parents.. whom have lost and forgotten everything about parenting a under 12 months baby *LOL* . so even if i didn't get my bonus.. who cares.. they are my bonus.

2. managed to turn around at work & did better then last year. well.. almost.

3. i managed a household ok, without caveman around. tiring but ok. but i think i need a bibik la for 2011. *LOL*

in 2011.. i hope to :

1. continue breastfeeding mons mons..until she is ready to quit. hopefully.
2. save more. spend less. ni paling susah ni! heheh! but caveman has decided to take a 7 months unpaid leave in 2012, to under went a course. so that is very scary to me.. 7 months is long! so 2011 is to save up for that.
3. be a better mom.. physically, mentally & religiously (is that a word?).
4. organize more family reunions! wait.. m supposed to be saving up kan? dang!

buhhbyee 2010... heeloooooooooooo 2011.

counting them days..

well.. i haven't got much to say.. because :

1. i am super busy at work. super. seriously. mama thinks i deserve a six months bonus next year. *LOL*

2. mon mons party is like 2 weeks from today.. it is still the alice in wonderland tea party.. but m still contemplating & still analyzing should i do it outdoor.. or indoor. outdoor would be super nice.. but indoor would be better for the little ones (her guests are 50% 3 years old and younger). so in is it. now m figuring out how the heck am i gonna hang them bloody butterflies & wind chimes. indoor. oh my poor plaster ceiling. sigh.

3. i have purchased a brand spanking new printer for mon mons has demolished the previous one. this is suppose to be for the things i needed to print for her party.

4. mon mons is super active & learning to walk. and the moment she crashes.. its either back to work for me.. or back to designing her room.. or planning her birthday party. sometimes i can hear sounds in my head.. but i dunno what it is.. *LOL*

and this is during lunch. sigh..

have a good weekend peeps!

*mellow*

sebab saya tak dapat bonus tahun ini.. saya berasa agak down. sebab orang lain bakal beraya sakan.. saya.. *sigh*

but.. as a consolation.. i wouldn't trade Hannah even for a year's bonus. hee..

buhbye august..

with august coming to an end.. i find it pretty difficult to recall certain events. like when my mom asked me.. bile eh (fill in the blanks) .. all i could give her was.. a blank stare. 2010 has zipped through so fast. very fast i might add.

on the home front :

1. i finally managed to redo the garden. it was a jungle my husband & mom created when i was preggers. yes, they had a field day. and i hated it. it was planted with all the things i hated. i took it all off.. planted nothing but greens (inspired by our stay at Sunset Beach Resort, Langkawi). a work in progress as i still have the other side of the house to redo. by that i mean remove all the unwanted pokok bunga kertas. bluergh!

2. managed to wash my sofa cover.. after much hesitation. hahah!

3. still did not manage to put up our wedding photo. or any of hannah's photo. or do that damn canvas print thing. damn.

on hannah :

1. after 2 nights of super crankiness..and wailing.. i realised her two front teeth was out. and that makes 4 front teeth. but please la.. i hope this was the hardest. it kills me to see her cry like that.

2. she crawls. backwards. then sits. then lunge forward like superman. then sits. then crawl backwards. hehehe!

3. calls me mama. or ateh (family nick name). but calls me mommy when in pain. or half awake. neat ei.

4. is now wearing 18 - 24 or 2t. sigh. 10kg.. macam sekampit beras tuuu (ni daddy die kata kalau kena rock her to sleep eheheh).

5. is taking the formula during the day. but at a very minimal amount. she eats a lot though. sigh. and she cries everytime i tell her she needs to take the formula while m at work. and that my milk stock is depleting. breaks my heart.

on work :

1. wellllll.. sexyback is no longer here. yehu. my new bos is ok.. but my newer bos (yes, they keep changing their mind).. is .. urgh. m catching up like mad at work.. since the new structure requires us slaves to go to these monthly meetings. where.. the whole of the state will see how much you produced in a month.. kena tabuh depan satu negeri ye puan2. then followed by a teleconference. where, you kena tabuh in front of the whole malaysia. ye. dunia saya sangat kejam. sigh. i could never win. but who cares!?

2. and sexyback gave me a bad assesment. oh well.. there goes my bonus. mintak kat laki je la. heheh

on other matters :

1. lumut nak bukak tesco siot..hehehe!

ketinggalan..

i just realised (among the many, many, many things that i tend to forget hehe).. that i haven't blogged about :

1. the kind, lovely peeps and families whole came to visit hannah & i since she was born..
mainly because i didn't take their photos with her.. sigh...
2. many major events.. i.e. birthdays, holidays.. bla bla..because.. errr.. err.. i just simply forgot.

dang... what has this blog turning into. ooo i know... i know...some mommy blog updated via cellphones. d'uh.

so here's for a start of a back to the good blog days (hehe!).. photos from my birthday..

(intro gile panjang)



there were plenty others.. but its 5 in the morning.. i have no idea what m doing awake while hannah is still in slumberland.. go figure.. i make no sense these days

al - Fatihah..

my morning drive wouldn't be the same anymore..

Al Fatihah & salam takziah for the passing of Era's Din Beramboi..

sometimes death do make you wonder many, many things..

my friend ros said it made her wonder if she gets to see her hubby for the last time..

me.. all i could think of was ..

hannah..

nursery rhymes..

well.. after much huff & puff of slaving for raya.. i finally get some breather & plonk myself infront of this damn mesin menaip.. and google.. "nursery rhymes".. i figured.. since i already have a collection of surah, zikir.. i thought it would be ok to have some nursery rhymes at hand too.

and since my little brother finally came home with the much awaited samsung K5 (yes i know its ancient.. but its vintage ok.. *LOL*) .. it's a good way to kill time.. since there's only my mom & i are at home (yes, we're very on schedule this year, somehow).

but then i came across this article on nursery rhymes.. and i couldn't stop laughing at it.. i dunno la if this article is right.. or completely bogus.. but it's funny..

The Disturbing Origins of 5 Common Nursery Rhymes

a silent moment please..

i never thought some of the quirky things i read about being pregnant could be true. like.. weird dreams. ive been getting the weirdest since i hit my 6th month. and every week there'll always be a dream about my school peeps, especially lis & reena. does this mean munchkin is going to be a combo of the 2? *f.a.i.n.t* hahahahah! once, i dreamt we all had to go for national service... but it was like on a ship.. then i got hit by the waves.. and khemy was there. hahahahah!

as my nesting mode kicks in (if you have never heard of it.. read up.. i once thought its fiction.. i now think its taking over me).. i find myself cleaning up everything.. planning it all. i even cleaned up the store today. and found 3 boxes of wedding stuff, ribbons, sponges, tons of styrofoams, and what have yous .. enough to plan a mini wedding *LOL*

and i finally get the chance to start packing my bag for the birth-day. creepy. seriously. so far munchkin's stuff is almost done.. mine.. well.. with the kain batik downstairs.. and the socks no where to be found.. and haven't had the time to buy some more stuff (pads, disposable undies..as suggested..) but my toiletries bag is done. which was funny cos at one point i almost called one of my mommy peeps to asked do i need shampoos & facial cleanser.. and why the hell is there a facial scrub in here?! *LOL* then i realise the only think i'd be needing was probably a toothbrush& tooth paste.. but i dunno. i still snuck in my bath&body mist *grin*

then reality hits me.. m gonna be a mommy in about 73 days (or less???!)!!! i have concluded that giving birth & confinement is not what scares me.. but the aftermath. the parenting. what if i make a bad mommy? what if i make ugly choices for her? what if i neglect her? what if i neglect caveman for her? what if i neglect myself? what if my parents think m a bad parent? huarghhhhhhhhh!!

sigh... somebody pass me the sundae please..

writer's block (again)

kenapa saya kena writer's block :

1. saya banyak keje...
try completing 5 months work (sept to jan) in about 2 months.. and this is only to go off for 2 months of maternity!

2. m neither here, nor there with the munchkin & mummy's list. i think. the latest thing i got was barut, for her. and i havent even packed my bag. bulan depan, leh tak?

3. the mushroom is a mess. though my nesting mode has kicked in.. so does other thing (in a form of a cute little fetus named ...... ye, hubby & i finally has a name that he chose & i liked. i will still call her kiah ronggeng if she misbehave.. LOL)

4. the fasting month (selamat berpuasa hari ke dua peeps..)
after much thinking.. and getting feedbacks from other mummies.. i've decided to give fasting a shot. since my obgyn gave me the green light to do so.. so far.. so good. tak tau la esok kan.. at work.. with all that talking.. (why can't these people stop calling during the fasting month!!) . so far munchkin is as active as ever.. i guess her supply is ample. tengok perut la kan. hahahaa

oh well...

aug in...aug out..

as i sit in my room.. counting munchkin's new clothes.. (i overbought in some categories.. and haven't bought any in others LOL) .. i realised i missed one of my friend's birthday.. it was on the 8th of Aug.

which then lead me to the second thing.. how last year.. everyone was making a big hu ha about the date 08.08.08. the number of people who got married on that date was countless.

which then reminded me.. it has already been a year since. waaa... so fast la. then it dawned on me.. that i got married on 10.10.08.. and munchkin is due on 10.11.09. i was born a day before my parent's anniversary. since munchkin couldn't repeat history.. maybe she can choose 11.11.08 for her birthday? *LOL*

weighing 928gm today.. she is in an oblique breech position.. which i thought is ok.. since she's only in her 27th week. since i didn't go to my obgyn today.. (mc dikeluarkan oleh GP saje ye kawan2) .. she gave me this very panicky talk on how at 36th week.. if munchkin's still at a breech.. then i would have a C-sec by 38th.

alaa.. relekk laa..

from 9 to 12...

let me see.. after a whole week of resting and chilling.. and shopping.. i returned to work only to be told sexyback was waiting for me to come back to have a meeting. great.

the first 10 minute of the meeting.. cik mong & i were given the following preposition :

"all you need is a letter from me.. and you're dead"
"bla.. bla.. bla.. tender your resignation"
bla.. bla.. bla.. you can ask for a transfer. i can always get someone else to take your place"
"you get what you deserve"

and it went on.. on every freaking agenda. can you believe that? even on things that wasn't related to any one of us. but when it comes to his favourite staff.. waaa... betul betul betul sahaja ye kawan2.

all i can say is.. what the fuck.

i didn't say anything throughout the meeting.. i didn't want munchkin to turn out to be a bitter bitch. teehee...!

i was really, really down the whole day. i mean, its not fair for anyone to say things like that.. to people who work their ass off for you, especially. so we're slacking in some parts of our work, its not like we sweep it under the carpet or make up excuses (like your pet staff does). give us a damn break when we try to juggle everything all at once (including putting up with you.. and your pet staff who happen to be OUR staff and works only 20% of the time).

and i had no one to take it out on. i so need caveman. sigh.

but life goes on. thinking back on it.. he should so quit cos he's so fucking annoying. he's always bragging how rich he is.. bla bla bla.. so quit la kan. why bother working with some kids he can't handle. right.

so you quit. cos i have a mortgage to pay and i love my mushroom.

dan suami saya tak bagik benti.

*LOL*

a long day..

the aftermath of the gender bender of munchkin is finally over (polka dot leggings.. here we come!!!!) ..

came the news of the demise of the king of pop. sigh.. i was a big fan when i was a teeny tot.. i thought he was cool when he was still curly and brown and hidung penyek.. after that he's just weird. but after a while, the endless playlist of his songs was killing me. but hei.. it is michael jackson. i wonder what will happen to his kids. sigh. poor kids.

then came the news that caveman is coming home. hee. nuff said. munchkin seemed to love the idea her daddy's home. she moved everytime she hear him talk. tapi taktau la tu tanda die menyampah ke ape ke.. hahahahahaha

then i saw on telly an extensive coverage on yes, michael jackson.. and the gosselins. jon & kate are getting a divorce. heh. reality tv.

enjoy ur weekend peeps.. i know i will.. i finally have a chaffeur to take me baby shopping.. woohoo!!!

pengumuman

ya.. saya masih lagi tersampuk dengan tag khemy. saya tak tau macam mana nak unsampukkan diri saya dari sumpahan bahasa ibunda ini..

tapi..

suami saya dah baliiikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

wooohooo..!

toes

that's it... i can't reach my toes...

yes.. m facing writer's block.

and then there's work..

huh. june. i hate june. it one of those overworked months. but this year.. m just chillin it. who cares. bonus.. no bonus.. makes no different to me.. i am content. ewah. *LOL*

it was a fab morning though. finally got a call from caveman *swoon* ofcourse.. he's still not back in KSB.. satelite phones rocks! *grin* he was very surprised to hear i haven't (read : Haven't) bought anything for little munchkin. not even booties / mittens, he asked? well.. being pregnant, alone.. is already no fun. let's not make the shopping a misery. teehee..

sigh.. i miss my husband.

and.... risya corner emailed me saying the audrey i wanted is sooo available. *floats on jerebu* banyak pahala membahagiakan orang mengandung... heheheheheheh!

i went to get my monthly facial fix today.. and she offered to do my confinement massages. *wee* !!

sigh.. i shall a good sleep tonight. but wait....! my loo is under repair.. huuhuuu!