so that was what i have been up to the first 4 days of my first week at work for 2010 (on friday i was so exhausted i took an mc..which, hannah loves). datelines, appointments, were all scheduled around her feeding sessions. including, nudging her to wake up at 5..so i can get ready for work.. and she would wake up again at 7, for her next feed. she will ideally wake up at 10+, have her bath.. and i'll be home on time at 11 for her feed. perfect? sometimes.
this ofcourse does not include the fact that i had 2 meetings last week.. which resulted in her throwing a fit while waiting for the late mommy. she would not give in to the bottle.. although she was already whimpering & would just close her eyes & try to sleep. hungry. i cannot explain how this made me feel. on thurs, i was so late and she was already very tired of crying, and hungry.. it made me cry just looking at her sob. at that point, i kept thinking what should i do.. quitting either one is not an option. and there is not one person who encourages me. which is sad. you might think in these age where people knows breastfeeding is good for both the mommy & baby.. you expect some kind words when breastfeeding has not been smooth sailing. well, luck.
this article about breastfeeding myths was very useful.. and the last myth was spot on :
15. Breastfeeding is blamed for everything.
True! Family, health professionals, neighbours, friends and taxi drivers will blame breastfeeding if the mother is tired, nervous, weepy, sick, has pain in her knees, has difficulty sleeping, is always sleepy, feels dizzy, is anemic, has a relapse of her arthritis (migraines, or any chronic problem) complains of hair loss, change of vision, ringing in the ears or itchy skin. Breastfeeding will be blamed as the cause of marriage problems and the other children acting up. Breastfeeding is to blame when the mortgage rates go up and the economy is faltering. And whenever there is something that does not fit the "picture book" life, the mother will be advised by everyone that it will be better if she stops breastfeeding.
the only thing that kept me going was the smile that hannah gave me everytime she latches off... and snoozes. and laugh. all in her sleep.